Girl Talk {Alyssa}

[Alyssa :)]

Alice had made a new acquittance today, someone who had only been here for a few months and also another quiet spoken teenager. They had met at lunch but that was only because she had ventured away from Allison's side. In all actuality Alice thought her room mate would follow to meet the lone girl that sat on the far end of their table but they hadn't. Gently she sighed while walking down the many the hall to the room she had been assigned years ago.

Alice stopped in front of the chamber that she was forced to call home and opened to the door. She scowled when she realized that the dorm was more than likely still a mess from a very frustrated night weeks ago. Silently she tucked her hands in the pockets on the gray jumpsuit pants while waiting for Eliza. Hopefully the new girl wouldn't mind to much for the mess that would soon be exposed when she opened the door. "Sorry about the mess," she stated softly and pushed open the door.

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Eliza was very nervous about the meeting with Alice. Despite having talked to the girl at lunch quite a bit, she was still very shy around her, just as she would be with anyone other than her family. Her family who was no longer alive. It hurt to think of them, so she shoved the thoughts away and thought about the meeting instead, not that it was that much better of a subject. Eliza wondered what Alice would tell her. It sounded like she had answers to her questions, which made her excited and anxious, but she also wasn't sure if she wanted to know some of the answers. These mixed feelings were starting to annoy her.

She quietly came up behind Alice. After listening to her apology, Eliza gave her new friend a small smile. "It's fine, I don't mind," she said politely. She walked into the room, carefully maneuvering around clothes and things. She turned to look at Alice, not sure of what to say or what to do next.

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Alice listened as Eliza politely accept her apologize and then walked in behind her guest. Lazily she picked up a shirt and rolled it into a ball which she then shot into a small hamper that was close to over filling. Casually she sat down in the bunk which still was un-made and looked at her acquittance, or friend, she hadn't figured out which Eliza was yet. Uneasily she rubbed a hand across her arm and looked around the messy room. Maybe inviting someone here wasn't the best idea but oh well, to late to change her mind now.

An umm managed to escape as she tried to figure out what to say or even gesture. "Umm, I guess sit where ever you find comfortable." She stated shyly while standing back up. Timidly she took a few steps to the desk and closed a med before straightening out some stray papers. Then she threw some more clothes into the hamper before uneasily tucking her hands in her pockets. Dark brown gaze focused on the almost clean ground. With a deep breath she looked up at Eliza. "What do you want to talk about?" She asked gently.

[Alyssa :)]

When Alice left the bunk to clean, Eliza replaced her spot and sat down on the bed.  She felt like she should help clean, but that could also be awkward if some if the clothes she couldn't see were bras and panties and such.  It probably wouldn't bother most girls, but Eliza was very shy, and she felt like she would be invading privacy.

"Umm..." came out of her mouth too as she thought about how to answer Alice's last question.  She didn't feel they were ready to delve into each other's pasts just yet, so Eliza tried to think of a simple topic to discuss instead.  "Well...maybe we could actually reflect on the day...I mean, we are supposed to be doing that..." Eliza trailed off, realizing how extremely choppy and mumbled that sentence had just been.  She had no idea how she was going to get through this meeting if she kept being so shy and reserved and if she couldn't even speak straight sentences.

(sorry it's so short X( )

[Alyssa :)]

Alice lazily sank into the desk chair and turned to face Eliza. Talk about what has happened in the day? Funny, she wasn't even sure most people who worked together discussed events in their daily lives. It was a rather tedious topic that would require her to actually remember what happened through out her schedule. Lazily she pulled her left knee towards her chest and wrapped her arm around to keep the rather short extension of her torso that allowed her to walk on the chair.

She studied Eliza's face before letting her brown gaze fall towards her feet. "Well I suppose we could, although not many people actually do that unless they have a high position in this district." She replied lightly. Reflection was just a time most people caught up on task or shared stories or possibly even slept. Gently she placed her chin on her knee and looked at the wall just past Eliza.

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Really, Eliza knew that most people in District 13 didn't actually look back on their day during Reflection. But again, Eliza was just trying to start with a little small talk before getting into the deep stuff that they both probably weren't comfortable with sharing yet.

"Yeah...I guess..." she mumbled, uncertain of herself as usual. She figured she should start, since it was her idea in the first place, so she took a deep breath and started speaking, trying to be as smooth and eloquent as a shy, quiet girl can be. "Well, my day started out normally...I mean, I got up and went to breakfast and everything like usual...and it basically continued regularly until...until lunch, where I sat by myself. This really nice girl came over, the first person who's even looked at me in a while. She started talking to me, and we kinda got to be friends I guess, or I hope we are...anyway, now I'm here with her. And I think that was the most I've talked in a really, really long time." Eliza blushed a little and looked down at her hands resting in her lap. That really had been quite a long speech, for her.

(Sorry I took so long to reply! D:)

[Alyssa :)]

Alice listened as Eliza reinstated what she had done today. It was certainly interesting how someone so quiet and shy could explain how their day went as well as talk about someone they just met. Ali felt herself blush slightly and looked away. Why was she embarrassed about how Eliza describe their meeting? Oh well didn't really matter because she quickly regained her cool and tucked a stray hair behind her ear. "Sounds like you've had an amazing day so far," Ali stated lightly with a gentle smile. "I think I've made a new friend today as well, she's actually really nice but shy, although I think that might change after a bit of time here."

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Eliza smiled at Alice's comment. "I hope so," she added softly at the end. Her shyness would hold her back in District 13, and she needed to get over it. Of course, that was easier said than done. But if it helped her succeed in becoming a field nurse and saving lives, she would try to do so.

Suddenly, Eliza's thoughts were back to her little sister, who wasn't able to be saved. A haunted look crossed her face as those thoughts were pulled back to the surface. And just as suddenly, she needed to tell someone about Emma's life, perhaps so she could stop thinking about her death. "My sister...her name was Emma," she started, voice calm and steady as her eyes gazed at a scene no one else could see. "She was two years younger than me, but we were best friends. We had a really good life in District 1 with our parents, good jobs, a good house, good clothes...but most importantly we had each other. Even though we didn't need to cling to each other for survival, we were still as close as you could get. Everyday we would do each others hair, talk about clothes, everything girls do. I still remember everything about her from the day it happened. Her clothes, her hair, everything. Because I did it for her."

Eliza pulled herself from the vision before her and turned to Alice. "I'm sorry, I had to tell someone about her. About who she was." With a small, forced smile, she looked down at her lap where she was twisting and feeling a single piece of ribbon, Emma's ribbon from that day. "I must've sounded crazy, rambling on like that. I'm sorry."

(that was a really random speech that doesn't make any sense, so i don't know why i posted it XD sorryyy)

[Alyssa :)]

A random out burst of Eliza's past, Alice made sure to sit in silence and listen to every single detail. Clearly Eliza missed her sister and that this was something that hung on her mind regularly. Ali tucked a lose strand of hair behind her own ear not really sure how or much less were to start. How did you reply to someone telling you about either their missing or deceased sister? Silently she mulled over her own past hoping to draw some sort of words.

"Its okay you don't sound crazy," She started out gently. "Everyone needs to talk and get whats on their mind off their chest every once in awhile. If not you'd eventually go crazy." A deep stabbing pain started to build up in her chest and she found herself leaning back on her elbows. Her brown eyes studied to room of the place she now called home. Why the sudden pain in her chest? Was it the fact that she had taken the time to think of her own deceased family? Slowly she took in a deep breath and then sighed.

"I ran away from District 12 when I was 7 and thats the only reason why I'm here. I never actually believed that people could still be living in a district said to be destroyed. My dad died in a coal accident when I was little and I can't say I remember him all that well. After that my family started to fall apart but everything went down hill when my brother died in the games. Shortly after my mom committed suicide and then like I said I ran away." She spoke in a soft, rather shaky tone as she took an uneasy 'walk' down memory lane. Her eyes were dry but her lip quivered slightly. She looked down at her bed and sighed a unstable sigh. "Life is a hard thing and sometimes we have to face things that we never imaged but in the end we become stronger than we once were, Allison told me that when we started becoming close friends."

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Eliza glanced up from her hands, which were still holding Emma's ribbon, to see how Alice reacted to her outburst. She didn't seem to think it was as strange as it really was. In fact, she acted like it was practically normal. That was when Eliza realized something: it was normal to people here in District 13. Everyone had their pasts, everyone had lasting issues from them. Just like earlier at lunch, Eliza didn't feel alone anymore. Because she wasn't.

As Eliza listened to Alice's story, she was ashamed as she realized she was a little comforted that she hadn't gone through as many terrible things as Alice had. At least her sister hadn't been reaped. At least she hadn't had more siblings to watch as they were each taken from her. No, she hadn't been too bad off.

"Life is a hard thing and sometimes we have to face things that we never imagined but in the end we become stronger than we once were, Allison told me that when we started becoming close friends."

"She sounds like a smart girl," Eliza said. "And I think she's right." She looked back down at her hands as she continued to speak, her spurt of boldness starting to wear off. "I...I just feel like there's a reason all those things happened to us...and there's a reason why we're here. I feel like we...or I, at least...can finally do something with my life. It's just...terrible that we had to lose our families in order for us to get to that point."