Lunch `` Open

[Alyssa :)]

Eliza nodded in agreement. She often wanted to go outside whenever she felt like it too, and she was also worried about District 13 residents' lack of sunlight and certain vitamins and minerals. But usually she didn't pay too much attention to that--she was more worried about broken bones, bullet wounds, stuff like that. This was probably the case because her sister had died of a bullet wound. Now Eliza wanted to help others like Emma, and hopefully save them instead of see them end up like her sister.

"I'm also really anxious to get out their and help people," she remarked. "I feel like I've had enough practice, and I just want to go to the field. But I'm probably wrong...I probably still have a lot to learn..." Eliza sighed before looking up and around the lunchroom. It seemed like most people were feeling the same way she was at the moment: bored and gloomy. But she was sure there were people in the crowd more optimistic than the rest, and she hoped soon she would look like that as well.

[Alyssa :)]

Every person who was not born and raised in District 13 wanted to get outside. Alice was used to being outside when she finished school and sneaking into the woods when ever that was possible. She had planned on living in the woods but thats when a ship picked her up. Her first through had been that she was going to die or become one of the Capitols slaves. At least she was alive despite her lack of freedom. She listened silently as Eliza expressed her own concerns.

"You'll get out there in time and specially to train." She explained, "I remember feeling like that for the longest of time and then I got out there. Oh that certainly was an experience and it was even worse when there was gun fire. There is so much that goes through your mind when your out there and you'll forget things but then you'll learn other things. Maybe we can get out sometime and simulate what its like." Gently she looked up with a soft smile. Anything to get out of the rat tunnels this district called home. Cooley she ran her hands through her bangs while thinking.

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Eliza smiled shyly back at Alice and nodded. "Yeah, that would be nice," she said. "So...it was really hard the first time you went out?" Eliza wanted to know as much as she could before going out so she could do her best.

Then Eliza thought about Alice's words again and started to worry. What if she forgot everything when she got out there--her mind just went blank when she needed it most? What if she accidentally used the wrong treatments for someone's injuries and killed them? What if the person's family came after her for killing their family member? And then there was the gunfire aspect of being a field nurse. Would she imagine Emma when she heard the guns go off? Would she see her little sister, neck spilling unhealthy pools of blood on to the ground? She knew she wouldn't be able to handle that, and it would definitely make her forget all she had learned. But how was she supposed to prevent it? Stop training to be a field nurse and try something else? But she had already come this far, and what else would she do anyway? Being a soldier would only be worse. Eliza realized her first time out on the field was going to be very, very difficult.

[Alyssa :)]

Alice sat in silence for a minute or so as Eliza asked her another question. She was pretty sure one that she had all ready answered. Oh well, new people were always full of question that basically had the same flow. There was no doubt about it that she was worse with her questions when she first arrived at District 13. She was seven and had lost all hope in the world so questions had become her life whether she asked them or not. Her mind was on a loop of never ending questions and always would be. Sometimes thats just how she got through schooling and the dissaperince of people. She started to push food around on her tray not hungry anymore which was odd considering she hadn't eaten breakfast.

"Yeah but the first time I went out after I got here was when I was 10 so I was young. I don't know if age matters but I think it might or maybe even past experience have its toll." She replied lightly while placing her spoon back down on the tray. There was really no way she could answer a question positively when she didn't know why she had freaked out so much. She sighed and looked at the food. It was so plain and boring as well as repetative, pretty much like her life. Her life was just one big jumble of repetition which involved death, moving, following dry orders and clinging to one person until they got annoyed with her.

[Alyssa :)]

"Maybe even past experience have its toll." Eliza froze. So she was right. Emma's death was going to affect her work. She put her elbows on the table and her face in her hands. She didn't know what to do. She needed to find a way to prevent flashbacks or thoughts of Emma.

"How do you forget the past?" she whispered, lifting her face out of her hands and looking at Alice with wide, emotionless eyes. She brushed her hair behind her ears and looked away from the other girl, taking a bite of food and slowly chewing it as if nothing had happened. But she did want to know. How are you supposed to forget something so scarring? Because to Eliza, that was the only we she wasn't going to freeze on the field. To forget it ever happened.

(sorry it's so short >.<)

[Alyssa :)]

Alice listened to the light whisper of Eliza's question. Was there even a way to just forget the past? It couldn't be possible to just forget everything unless you had some sort of medical disease. She stopped messing with her pant leg and took a sip of her water. How did she answer Eliza's question? Then finally she looked around at the people in the cafeteria still, most were of District 13 but a few were from other districts. Everyone of them had their own vivid memories that they would love to get rid of. Most of the natives wanted to get rid of the memory of the huge sickness outbreak that had killed many. She wanted to get ride of the memory of her families deaths.

Softly she sighed and looked at Eliza. "There is no way to just forget the past." She replied finally, "Just accept it and try your best not to remember it till your alone. Its hard to accept the terrible things but you can do it." She looked back at her pant leg and rolled the end of it. She wanted to get up and go back to her compartment to just lay and think. Her mind now fully looking at her life's journey.

[Alyssa :)]

Eliza thought she might have heard some sadness in Alice's voice.  So she had gone through a bad time as well.  Actually, everyone in District 13 had probably gone through some difficult time.  Eliza realized this, and suddenly felt less alone.  She even felt a bit comforted. Maybe she could think of this if she froze on the field, or if she needed to pull out of a bout of depression.  If she remembered this, how a lot of people besides her have had to go through the same problems, she would be able to pull herself together.  It could probably comfort her enough to do that.  And she wouldn't have to forget Emma.

Back in real time, Eliza sighed, very relieved she had found a possible solution to her problem.  Her eyes refocused on Alice, who probably thought she was very strange for staring at her as she thought.  No matter, Eliza loved her for solving her problem.  It didn't matter if Alice didn't return this sisterly love.  "Maybe I'll be okay knowing others have gone through the same thing," she said her earlier thoughts aloud to fill the silence.

Eliza remembered she was still at lunch and looked down at her food, about halfway eaten. That was a lot for her. She smiled, a little proud of herself for stomaching so much disgusting food. Then she realized it was probably coming close to 12:30 and Reflection. "Uh...do you wanna walk with me to Reflection?" she asked, her shy side starting to come back.

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Alice looked up to see Eliza just staring at her and she was confused as to why. So naturally she looked back at her pant leg wondering why Eliza had such an intense focus on her. She let her mind wander over the possible aspects as to why people. Then she looked back up at the seemingly troubled girl. With a rather slow movement Alice pushed hair from her face and took the last sip of water from her glass. Then she glanced toward the clock all the way across the hall. Lunch was almost over and then she could go curl up on her unmade bed for a rather welcome nap.

The sound of Eliza's voice pulled her brown gaze back to the table. The young teenager made it seem like District 13 never had a problem or something. Alice chuckled gently at Eliza's sudden realization and was glad that she wasn't being stared at anymore. "That is a good way to look at a situation I suppose. You'll get along amazing with Allison because she had the same worries when she first got here three weeks ago. When she gets back from her mission you should talk to her she'll be more help than I am." She replied lightly looking up from her pant leg.

Eliza's next question caught her off guard and to be honest she didn't know how to answer. Reflection wasn't necessarily a room everyone met up in to think about the day but generally a personal matter. Slowly Alice flexed her fingers and listened to them pop from her Crohn's disease, something she hadn't learned until she was examined here at District 13. "If you mean walk you back to your dorm I guess I can." She replied but paused to think about something. "Or you can come back to mine and Allison's dorm. I can answer more questions there that I can't answer out here. Despite how long I've lived out here my whole life back in District 12 is a secret to most."

- Crohn's disease sucks so bad like you can't move with out some joint popping -

[Alyssa :)]

"Oh, okay," Eliza replied to Alice's suggestion of talking to Allison. But she cringed internally at the thought of having to meet another person. She was much too shy, but she really needed to get over that.

"Oh...right," Eliza murmured, blushing when Alice corrected her about Reflection. How long had she been here? A couple months? And she still hadn't figured out what Reflection was. She had always just went back to her dorm after lunch like everyone else, not knowing what to do. She thought maybe there was a meeting of some kind for Reflection, but she didn't want to go see people so she would always stayed in her dorm. Today, she thought she could go out on a limb and attend the "meeting" with her new acquaintance, when it turned out it actually did take place in the dorms.

When Alice offered to talk to Eliza in her and Allison's dorm, she jumped to accept it. Maybe she could explain to her some of the stuff she didn't know, and Eliza was a little curious about Alice's past in District 12. "Sure," she stated, excepting the offer. "I'll go."

[Alyssa :)]

Alice listened to Eliza mummer a short sentence to her comment about reflection. The district really should make it clearer to the new members that reflection took place in their dorms. She smiled and commented gently, "Everyone that is new makes that mistake." This was true because she had made the same mistake when she arrived here, except she wandered the halls the whole time.

Slowly Alice stood up and picked her tray off the table. This lunch had been more conversation than it had been filling my stomach after missing a few meals to many. Eliza had accepted her offer to spend reflection together which over all was a good thing because then they could go to class together afterward. "Cool, lets try to beat the rest of the crowd out then." She stated, walking away from the table with a glance over her shoulder occasionally making sure Eliza was following.

- So short sorry about that -

[Alyssa :)]

Eliza nodded in agreement, knowing the cafeteria would soon turn into stampede grounds and wanting to get out before then too. She stood up and grabbed her tray before dumping it and following her new acquaintance.

Walking next to Alice, she thought about the future. Would she become good friends with this girl? She already felt like they had a lot in common, and she found her very helpful. It would be nice to have her as a close friend. Would she start to fit in more? So far she'd sat alone at meals, talked to no one in classes, and not asked any questions. It was time for a change. Would she start to feel more at home? That was a big one, since right now she still felt like she was just in a strange place, trying to escape. How could she change from feeling that way to feeling at home? So many questions, and the answers would only be revealed with time. Eliza was anxious to see them unravel.

(that's fine, mine's super short too XD and they're leaving so there isn't much to talk about anyway :) )