Now what? ~Ronald~

[aliciamusa]

It's been two months sense me and Ronald actually started to be a couple. That same day I think I got pregnant. It's been two months, and my belly has gotten bigger. I haven't been eating to much. To tell you the truth I have been eating little things here and there. I made sure to see Ronald everyday. It has been working but as the reaping day gets closer he has been spending more and more time at the training center.

I walk my lazy butt up to the training center and everything stops. I look at them and yell "Get back to work! Just because I came in the room after being gone does not give you an excuse to stop!" Everybody quickly gets back to working after I said that. I walk slowly over to the spot I know Ronald will be in.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

I had always gone to my usual hand to hand combat spot and then general Nicole would come find me. Of course people would watch and in the end it was really annoying. Lately however I've been trying to avoid her but I couldn't just stop training. This was my year. My year to be a career in the games and hopefully win. I punched the dummy with a rather hard fist and all my anger welled up inside the hit. I sighed and leaned against the stupid tool to help with training. My forehead rested on the study dummy and I crossed my arm. Since my fling with Nicole I hadn't noticed much differences but then again I've tried not to look her over much. People started to assume we were a thing which we might be. I heard Nicole's voice and knew that she was heading this way. Effortlessly I pushed myself back up and hit the dummy once more.

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[aliciamusa]

Nicole saw Ronald in his usually spot. She felt like he was ignoring her after their night together. Nicole all of a sudden stopped in her tracks. Did Ronald want to see her right now. She didn't think so. She walked over to the throwing section which everybody seamed to be happy she was back. Nicole helped them for a few minutes before gathering all of her courage and walking over to Ronald. She took his hand in hers and then went in front of him to hug him.


OOC:Sorry if I just flipped to 3rd person my dad freaked out on the post I was going to post so he made me change it. So here is the new one and he also said to post in third person with that character ((He thought I was posting about me)) I think lol again sorry for the wait.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

Nicole had disappeared to another training area for awhile and I was glad because I didn't have to worry about what happened. Though I could feel anger beat up on my insides at how stupid I was for that night. With rather quick hands I lashed out at the dummy before stepping back, fist fallen to my sides. My gaze focused on the ground until I heard footsteps coming towards me. Then someone grabbed my hand, Nicole. I felt her hug me and I wrapped my arms around her. My head gently rested on hers for a second as I mulled over this different feeling. There was something different about Nicole but I couldn't quite figure out what just from his hug.

Slowly I stepped back and looked her over a few times. I could feel the blood drain from my face as I noticed the slight bump in her stomach which hadn't been there months ago. That meant only one thing and hopefully this was just some crazy dream. "Hey. How are you?" I asked gently refraining from staring at her stomach which shockingly was harder then I thought. Gently I wrapped her back in my arms just because I knew that was the only way to keep my eyes off of most of her.

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[aliciamusa]

Ronald had gave Nicole a hug after she gave him one. Than he asked her how she was. Before she could even say anything he pulled her into another hug. Nicole was happy, even though she knew Ronald was going to go into the games. "I am doing okay. How about yourself?"[/i] She said while pulling away. She wanted to be in his arms just not like that. She felt like he just didn't want to look at her stomach. It had gotten bigger than a few months ago. The only thing was people knew she hadn't been eating much.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

Nicole pulled herself out of my arms after answer my question. I let out a snort and tucked my hands in my pockets. So much for trying to avoid staring at her. I focused my gaze on her face just because that was the only thing I knew wouldn't get me in trouble. "Fine I suppose a bit tired from work and training but I can't complain much." I replied stiffly avoiding the one question I wanted to ask her. Was she pregnant? If she was; who's kid was it? Slowly I drew in a breath and dropped my gaze to the ground. Certainly she didn't just sleep around so if the answer to his first question would be yes, it had to be his. Sadly with the games coming around he would probably never see the bundle of joy he might have just helped bring into this terrible world.

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[aliciamusa]

Nicole took Ronald's hands in hers. She started to swing her hands sideways with Ronald's in hers. She stopped and looked at the dummy Ronald was hitting. "I want you to come back to me." She said not looking at him. She wanted him to come back but she just could not stand to look at him when she said it. Nicole moved her hands to hug her belly. She than dropped them and looked at Ronald. She smiled like she use to when they first meet.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

My arms swung lifelessly as Nicole swung her arms from side to side. I focused my gaze on her when she spoke but sadly she looked at the ground or something, I was sure as to why. I pulled my hands away and shoved them back to my pocket. She rubbed her stomach which only confirmed my fears. I couldn't smile, there was to much going through my head. Although he wasn't sure as to what she meant by her statement. "What do you mean?" I asked faintly.

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[aliciamusa]

What did Nicole mean? She wanted him to come back but even she knew once somebody goes in the games if they come back they won't be the same. It is the truth. "I mean, I can't change your mind about going into the games so I want you to try and come back. Don't give up on hope. They might say hope is for the weak but I had hope and that is what kept me alive." Nicole was almost in tears. The reaping was almost here and she didn't want to lose Ronald yet. She didn't even want to lose him at all.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

I listened to Nicole explain what she meant of her last comment. So she does remember I'm volunteering for the games. I really didn't even know what to say after she finished speaking. Never in my life had I had one speck of hope travel across my mind or through my emotions. I just went around doing what ever I wanted, when ever I wanted and just because I don't care about this place. I'd much rather live in the Capitol where they don't even have to worry about what they say or do. Though I could see the emotion weighing in on her eyes. Slowly I step towards her and lifted her chin with a gentle hand. Very tenderly I kissed her lips before wrapping my arms around her. Lazily I drew in a breath of her fragrance and closed my eyes. "I promise that I will fight even if I have no fight left in me." I whispered gently.

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[aliciamusa]

When Ronald kissed Nicole she could feel the truth behind what he was going to say. When he said it Nicole started to cry and hugged Ronald. She didn't know what to do. She couldn't let him die. Nicole let her head rest on his chest. She put her arms around his next and held her hands together. She looked into his, blue-ish grey, eyes with her , blue, eyes and smiled. She kissed him again before saying, "I will miss you."

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

Great. I could feel Nicole start to cry when she pressed against my chest. Protectively I wrapped my arms around her and rested my head upon her own. I took a deep breath and looked at a few people. Most had stopped and began to stare. In silence I glared at them in hopes they would get back to work. Then Nicole moved and I found myself looking into her blue eyes. She smiled and before I could smile back I felt her lips touch mine. "I'm not gone yet." I whispered softly while gently placing my hand on her cheek. Very slowly I brushed the tears away from her face.

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[aliciamusa]

Not yet, not yet. Nicole keep saying in her head. She knew he wasn't gone yet but he would be gone. Before his only child would be born. That made her want to cry even more but she didn't. She looked down than back up at Ronald and found his eyes.

She opened her mouth to say something but than her eyes caught on the archer. She quickly turned her head to her and gave the girl a scowl. Nicole than saw that people were looking at her and Ronald. She than took Ronald's hand and led him back out of the training center.

She found his eyes once again and said "Your a dad." She than waited to be yelled at. She knew it was coming. Her dad yelled at her when she told him that she thought she was pregnant. So she thought Ronald would hit her.

[alex]

Ronald Arsanult White
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Talking - Thinking

I expected her to say something when she opened her mouth but then one of the archers caught her attention. After a second I was being pulled around again, just like two months ago. I didn't like how much control she had over me in many ways. "Your a dad" Nicole's words confirmed my greatest fear about the once mysterious growth of her stomach. It felt like my throat was closing and my breathing was claw at its fleshy sides. I swallowed hard just to force down a lump of who knows what that had lodged itself in my throat.

I needed to say something but there were no words for this kind of situation. Soon I'd be going in to the games and my chances of coming out alive was 1 in 24. Uneasily I ran a hand through my hair and studied her face. Was this some sort of sick, twisted joke? No, it wasn't. I didn't know what to say and I had to find something fast. My heart raced uncontrollably fast in my chest as realization finally set in. "I...I...I'm..." I stuttered then off and let my gaze drop to the ground. "I'm sorry...

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[aliciamusa]

Why was he sorry. It was her fault. She wanted him and got him but is losing him. How things never went her way. She wanted to scream and punch something. Maybe she should tell the capitol next quarter quell they should have a reaping of the victors from the districts. Maybe then this time Nicole would finally die like she was supposed too. She finally looked up and Ronald's eyes. Her eyes started to have tears in them. She gave him a hug and did not want to let go. Only she knew she would have to sooner or later. She wanted to keep him to herself and not share him. Only she couldn't.